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Energy Drinks

2011-09-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

Last updated: January 2011.

I mean, what the hell? But whatever it is, I now have a sudden realization that blogging is a neat way to practice my writing skills. Ever since I left school, I rarely compose writings of more than 140 characters.

So for this rare update, I'm going to write my first ever product review. Yes, product review. But I'm no shill, no one is paying me for this product review.

You know a Red Bull right? The drink that kept you awake at night during your studies. I have fond memories of it. My final year project final report was fuelled by two cans of Red Bull. Didn't sleep that night, typing and typing and churning.

That above is the one I usually drink. It's thick, yet it says less sugar there. It is relative though, it still is sweet as fuck. But yesterday, I found this kind of Red Bull.

Yes, it looks like the one you always see in the TV. Drunk by American college kids with alcohol. And you know what surprised me about it?

It's RM6.90 per can. Yes, RM7 for a can of Red Bull. 170 ml compared to 250 ml you get in the shorter can. Fortunately, the price is justifiable. The tall can is imported, so there's that. It is also carbonated, sort of like a can of 7up.

I still like the shorter one though. Sweeter definitely. The carbonated Red Bull tastes gimped. The gas crippled the sweetness of the drink. Because of the bubbles, you always want to finish the can as fast as possible. With the shorter one, I like to sip it slowly, to let the drugs in it to kick in.

General Text Laughs and Their Meanings

2011-01-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

With the advent of text-based messaging in our daily life (SMS, Facebook, email, Twitter), it makes it hard for us to really know the emotion behind said words. One word may be translated by a person as condescending yet by others as encouragement. But here, I will only speak about the common laugh we encounter in the online/SMS world.

Haha: Typically used to indicate laughing at something funny. When reading this, picture the sender to be laughing with his/her mouth open.

e.g: How are we gonna go there. Haha.

Footnote: Hah is used to convey surprise.

Hehe: This is used to convey a laugh too, but picture the sender to laugh with a smile and his/her mouth not open. There's also a grin accompanying this. The message intended is to say that that stuff is funny with a subtle hint of flirting.

e.g: That was nice. Hehe.

Footnote: Heh is one to watch out for. Usually means disgust or annoyance.

Hihi: This laugh is best pictured with the sender cheekily laughing, with a hand over the mouth covering the laugh and the shoulders bobbing up and down with the laughter. Almost possible flirtation.

e.g: That was fun. Hihi.

Footnote: Hih is rarely encountered, almost never.

Hoho: This is not a laugh. Usually used to convey a sense of astonishment or surprised at something. Picture the sender to say this with his/her mouth rounded.

e.g: He did what? Hoho

Footnote: Hoh is also rarely found. If found that means the user is really weird.

Huhu: Almost certainly not a laugh. When encountered this conveys annoyances. Fortunately at a different level too. Depends on the context too, whether mildly or greatly annoyed.

e.g: I don't like that. Huhu.

Footnote: Huh might convey anger or disgust at something. Proceed with great caution.

With that said, don't take this guide as a definite meaning of each word. This author will not be responsible for any misfortune that may come as a result of literally accepting this guide as a definite explanation for each term above.

Exemplary Exemplified

2010-12-19T00:23:00.001+08:00

Back in university we have to take the Professional Communication Skills subject in order to complete the course. Basically what the subject is all about is presenting your ideas ideally (heh) to an audience. And we learn how to properly conduct an informative presentation, persuasive presentation and group presentation.
One of the things we learnt in preparing a persuasive presentation is the need to assert your credibility. Why are you credible to talk about this to us? What gives you the authority to talk about this particular topic? And the aim of the presentation is to sway the opinion of the audience, if not to challege their current opinion in order to facilitate a paradigm shift in how they think.
So, what makes you credible? In order to be certified as credible you must tell the audience that you had an actual experience on the subject you want to talk about. For example, if you are telling the class to stop smoking, you must be a current quitter yourself or helped someone you loved to quit smoking. In other words, one must have a hands-on experience on the subject.
You might be asking, why am I talking about credibility? In a weird collection of events, I found myself involved in the field of academics. Specifically, teaching at a high school. In a way that job is also “engineering” the society to be useful someday. As it turns out, the most difficult years to listen to advice is the adolescent years.
Bear with me; I’m still not there. As a teacher, it is imperative that one exemplifies good personal traits so that one can be an example or inspiration to the young uns. Part of the job they say. Unfortunately, a post-graduation teacher lacks the experience. The carefree spirit is still retained inside, making it hard to appear tough and exemplary.
I’ll admit it, sometimes I do show my bad sides to them. But these bad sides in a way are pretty innocent, in a sense that it wouldn’t be bad for them. You know how your teachers tell you to observe the rules such as keep yourself tidy. Me myself is quite tardy and sometimes, for the lack of a better word, messy.
In a way, the kids observe some of the carefree spirits. They are not that stupid you see. They speak. They watch. They tell stories. They share stories. Stories that may make you look bad. Which brings us to the subject again. Credibility. How are you going to tell them that that is wrong, when you do it yourself?
A popular song once said, can you practice what you preach? I’m just going to leave it here for you all to ponder.

Better Reader

2010-07-12T21:22:00.001+08:00

One of the new features offered by the new Safari 5 is the reader. Basically what the Reader does is that it removes anything else from the site, leaving only the main article presented in a paper-like page. It removes all distractions that may exist in an article you are reading online.

Safari Reader in action

But, how if you dislike Safari? Does this removal of other distractions exist on other browsers? Fear not!

Introducing Readability. It performs the same function as Safari Reader, albeit without the original article being overlain by a translucent black colour. In fact, the Safari Reader code is based on Readability. Click the about button in Safari to see for yourself.

Anyway back to Readability. This is by far the best way to read on the internet, if you are not using Safari 5. Those using previous versions of Safari should upgrade to use this, while users of other browsers may install the bookmarklet at the main Readability website. Users of Firefox can download the addon here while Google Chrome users can download the extension here.

Here is a screenshot of my Opera 10.60, before Readability and post-Readability

Before Readability. Note the sidebar, urgh

Post-Readability. Yay for less clutter!

I enjoy both though, as my Windows box is my home PC and my Macbook Pro as my daily work companion. Opera as the Windows 7's default browser and Safari as the Snow Leopard's default browser. It works for me, so if it works for you, do let me know!

Readability on an iPad, that would be amazing!

Venting Vengeance

2010-07-09T23:45:00.004+08:00

Yesterday a colleague of mine shown me her students' homeworks. You see, she was giving her students an assignment; create a poem with frustration and madness as the main theme. Truthfully, I just took a glance at these poems that they wrote, they number some 20 in all.

You see, the teenage years are the years full of disappointments, anger and frustrations. I'm sure we've all experienced this. Angry at our parents, frustrated with our school results, frustrated at teachers' so-called rumbling and groveling.

Anyway, back to the story. I took a glance at these poems, and can be categorized to two main categories. One is from those staying far away from home, and one from places nearby Kuching. You see, those coming from far away from Kuching have one grouse; their expectations not being met when they make the leap to do their secondary school here. Those from near Kuching, they showed their anger and frustrations on relationship with their friends, family and loved ones. What I liked the most is that the reference to their lovers is thinly veiled I can just see through it.

So if any of them is going to come across this post, I just have this tiny nugget of advice to you. Just enjoy your teenage years. Forget the grouses. I know that is remotely possible, but please try to make less point or less effort to become disappointed. Go win a debate competition. Play netball as good as you can as the school representative. Pick a positive channel to focus all your disappointment. I've learnt my biggest mistake as a teenager; I wilt too easily I missed my chance to be the best I could be. Just remember, trying too hard to become someone other than yourself will just do that, turn you into a different person other than you. You might not feel the effect now, but do believe me it will all make sense when you are my age later.

Sent by the all knowing future-me.

Situasi

2010-06-09T01:51:00.001+08:00

i know this kind of shit should go to tumblr, but what the hell

di sini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu
bila esok hari datang lagi
ku coba hadapi semua ini
meski tanpamu oooh meski tanpamu

bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku slalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

kalau ku masih tetap disini
ku lewati semua yang terjadi
aku menunggumu, aku menunggu

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku ada dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

what i am feeling now

Fuck Ups

2010-04-08T23:19:00.001+08:00

Fuck up #1:
Wanted to eat sardines, but they were spoilt already.

Fuck up #2:
Wanted to drink papaya juice, but juice was spoilt too.

Fuck up #3:
I just realized I need form 1's sample questions to complete the task for tomorrow. I teach forn 2s, where got form 1 questions?

I guess this is an appropiate sign off for the post.

FML.
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The Long Awaited

2010-03-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

It is often said that the little things in life brighten your otherwise bland day.

So here is my story, for today, 29 March 2010.

Little gesture, yet it means a lot.

I'm guessing they can't fathom why it means a lot to me, maybe it is also because they do not know how much their little gesture means to me.

And a heart breaking affair I saw today, of a cat and her kitten.

The cat was returning back to the one place she thought her kitten was safe.

Yet she returned only to see the hapless kitten dead already.

This was the part that really broke my heart.

She went on carrying her child to god knows where, all the while meowing that sounds very much like weeping.

Bersedia?

2010-03-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

Sudah bersediakah?
Memadamkan chapter lama dari hidup?

Each step counts.
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Right Trigger

2010-01-31T00:11:00.001+08:00

Which one is easier?

1. Forgetting or being forgotten?

2. Being an ass or pretend to not know you’re treated like an ass?

3. Life or sedentary?

For your information, I stopped responding, I stopped to care because of this. Which leads to this.

And now I had officially being emotionally castrated.

(emo sekejap argh)

Saiko

2010-01-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

I don’t understand this.

Why would someone in Penang, Google up my name?

Saiko gila!

Unoriginally Uninspired

2010-01-13T23:08:00.001+08:00

Have you guys heard this song?

Bintang bintang di kayangan
Lembut sang bayu
Tanpa bulan di awangan yang tinggi
Tanpa bayangmu
Andainya tiada ketukan kayu

Jika mimpi dihapuskan
Hancurlah lagu
Walau kita dipisah laut biru
Walau kau jauh
Lihatlah angkasa
Kan terubat rasa rindu...
Seindah malam ini
Lazimnya tiada tandingan
Sehingga kupandang wajahmu
Hilanglah perasaan hiba di hati ini
Terpadam rindu bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali nanti

Jangan duduk sendirian
Jangan kau sayu
Kalau pungguk bersahutan
Kalau kau tahu kurindukan suara
Segeralah kepadaku

Sejenak malam itu
Kau buat ku bahagia
Semenjak malam itu
Hilanglah kisah kisah duka
Bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali

Seindah malam ini
Ku akan menunggu mu
Bila engkau kembali nanti

Kehadiran dirimu suatu hari nanti
Bila kau kembali nanti...

-innuendo, nanti

Milik siapakah hati ini? (uwekkkkkkkk)

The Facebook Oversharer

2010-01-12T22:01:00.003+08:00

I’m sure everyone nowadays treats Facebook like an absolute essential thing that they cannot miss in their life. Heck the first thing you guys do after you wake up might not be going to the loo but to the laptop instead checking out what you had missed in Facebook. I don’t blame you guys, heck I do the same thing too.

But I’m not gonna write about Facebook addiction or what not. I’m sure everyone of you have met this kinda person on Facebook.

You wanna know who’s this person I say?

Fellas, meet the Eager Facebook Oversharer.

As the name implies, the Facebook Oversharer shares too much things that happen in his/her life on their Facebook status updates. The box says ‘what’s on your mind’ dammit not ‘what did you do and who you did it with and where did you do it and was it fun to a million exclamation mark’. Each status update will include:

1. What did he/she do just now/today/this evening;

2. Who joined him/her during the said activity; presumably with those joined tagged too;

3. Where did the occasion happen;

4. How did he/she feels about doing the whole thing; and

5. [optional] a million or so exclamation mark with 1 intertwined between because sometimes the shift key losses the pressure.

For example, a FACBOS (let’s call them this) may post this after an evening out with girlfriend or boyfriend. For example’s sake, I shall give the FACBOS the gender female.

FACBOS: had a great time with boyfie enjoying the sunset and long walks on the beach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!!! i love you so much b!

FACBOS: went to the zoo with @jim, @boi, @black and @casey today, superfun!!!1!!!!!1!!!!

or it may go something like this

FACBOS: had lunch with robert from HR today.. ate a big sandwich.. what did you facebookers eat for lunch today?

You may ask, what’s wrong with that, seems innocent enough.

IT IS INNOCENT WHEN YOU POST IT SOME TIME OR OTHER BUT NOT EVERTIME YOU ENJOY DOING MUNDANE THINGS WITH YOUR FRIENDS THIS IS NOT TWITTER FOR GOD’S SAKE IT’S FUCKING FACEBOOK UPDATES ARE DEFINITELY SLOWER IF YOU WANT TO TELL THE WORLD WHAT YOU ATE FOR LUNCH USE TWITTER INSTEAD BUT I WON’T FOLLOW YOU THAT’S FOR SURE

Another thing about these FACBOSes are they are somehow “Facebook celebrities”, in which their status updates will and always will be:

1. replied to

2. replied to by at least 3 different persons, 1 of those may be his/her significant other;

3. spans more than 10 comments long

And those replies are about what they eat for lunch/where do they go on the lunch well you get my point. 15 or more comments on mundane things ordinary people do everyday! See picture below for an example:

*wtf i spent 20 mins writing this and i can’t fully convey my ideas fu fu fu

Stumble

2010-01-12T09:33:00.001+08:00

oh yeah another one to maintain my active online lifestyle.

my own stumble log.

click here.

Asmara Zaman Remaja

2010-01-07T00:04:00.001+08:00

Back when I fell in love during high school, I always listened to this song.

The weird thing is I always think to myself;

“I’m going to sing her this song after she realizes the current guy she’s seeing is not good for her”

(turns out they really did broke off later)

Anyways enough with the ramblings.

What song? Here goes.

Kau masih cantik seperti dulu
Saat bersama kujumpa dengan mu
Terasa ingin ku bersamamu
Tapi aku tidak seperti dulu

Kau senyum mesra
Mungkin tak mengapa
Tapi ku tak bisa
Pasti ada yang kan terluka

Jangan ditunggu
Pasti takkan berlaku
Walau kucinta kamu
Biar disimpan
Adakan sempadan
Aku dan juga dirimu

Kini aku telah berdua
Masa depan yang tak kita duga
Kutahu kau masih mengharap jua
Tapi ku tak bisa meninggalkannya

- aku dan kamu, flop poppy

Taking Chances

2010-01-05T01:09:00.001+08:00

I am lost and aimless now.

Of all the flowers,

I’d pick up a rose, anytime.

What do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below.
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say?

End Of Decade

2009-12-30T22:46:00.001+08:00

Let us recap the journey we took during the last 10 years.

2000

Oh yes, the Y2K scare. Luckily it never happened though. That time, they were launching the Pustaka Negeri and had a large event, with fireworks and stuff. What made me remember it? I was stuck at home, my stomach was sick that time.

I was still living in SMK TAHO's apartment back then. Also my first time skipping fast during my adult years. End of that year, we moved to our current house.

2001

I was in Form 3 then. We had the independence competition going on. I had my PMR this year. Also, was in the TV and newspaper when picking up the result. Front page no least.

2002

Form 4. Ah sweet year. Sudah tahu bercinta, albeit sucked at it. Became the school magazine committee. Did not had the final year holiday because we were at school completing the magazine. Became impromptu tour guide for visiting students from SMAKL.

2003

Senior year. Haha. SPM. Tuition. Struggle gila for additional mathematics. Main-main for Chemistry. No study at all for BAT. Guess which one I scored well. Frankly I don’t remember if we had a proper farewell party for 5B.

2004

UTP. The beginning of suffering, so to say. Not after I spent 8 months at home doing nothing. Foundation year was fun.

2005

Sudah pandai main-main belajar. Pretty shitty result that year. Went to Langkawi for the first time. Terlekat dengan seorang gadis. Pindah rumah baru di UTP.

2006

Sudah rapat dengan gadis itu. Semakin malas belajar. Gagal satu matapelajaran. Went to Kelantan I think. Or Terengganu. Civilians memang selalu kelua, sbb itu course lain dengki.

2007

Sudah mula sedar, tetapi sudah terlambat. Mula belajar rajin2. Pergi library. Hidup semakin fun di UTP. Pergi east coast lagi. Ada ETP, rapat dengan org yg b4 this tak kenal langsung. Ready for internship.

2008

Practical setengah tahun di JPS Sarawak. Met a cute girl, too bad she’s taken. Ahha. Had a new roommate at UTP. Sudah pandai bercinta, tapi sucked at it. Dapat lesen driving. FYP1.

2009

Senior year. Tahun yg rilek. Finish study. Berpisah ngan kawan2. Jadi cikgu kat SSK. Convo, dapat degree. First time makan gaji hasil peluh sendiri. Well worth it.

Kawan-kawan, mari buat list sebegini juga. Kalau boleh sebarkan di Facebook.

One Fateful Afternoon

2009-12-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

Setting: Medical Service Facility

Time: 1434

Mood: Cheery; Poker face

Opens door and approaches counter.

Looks around while accompanee talks to the lady at counter.

Notices the lady at the counter keep looking at this direction.

Pretends did not see it.

Option 1:

Go to the counter, ask whether we had met before or not.

If yes, ask where because sincerely had forgotten her name.

If not, cover up by saying you look familiar before continues to ask her name.

Option 2:

Pretend asking which one of the names on the board is hers.

Have small chat, maybe ask her number.

That weekend, ask her out to watch Avatar. Or Sherlock Holmes. Watching Avatar 3D would be awesome though, but haven't know her fully yet.

Option 3:

Ask her for a pen, and write down self phone number.

Ask her to text when free.

Let Nature takes its course.

Reality:

Dropped gaze, sometimes steals the look only to catch her still looking.

Rushed to the seat and took a magazine.

Read magazine with head down.

Paid before leaving, only to catch her still gazing.

Conclusion:

Maybe the shirt was dirty?

Something on face?

*all of the above are fictional accounts. please do no take word by word.

AHAD PEGI DENTIST AGIK YEAY!!!1!!!

It’s In The Details, Folks

2009-11-18T23:40:00.001+08:00

kitak,

pa kabar kitak tek? mek harap kitak sehat2 jak, boh stress lak oh, slalu mek nangga kitak nang stress jak rupa. kamek sitok sehat2 jak, ada batok2 sikit la, kali setegal ari ujan duak tiga ari tok.

apa2 pun, tujuan mek nulis surat tok k ktk aritok k mdh ngan itak isi hati mek tok. dah lamak dah mek nyimpan. tuhan jak tauk betapa berat ati mek menanggung perasaan tok.

tauk sik, dr pertama kali mek nangga kitak melimpas, kamek dah jatuh hati ngan kitak? mula2 kmk ingat kitak tok sombong, sbb mala molah muka menjus jak time kamek negor ktk. tauklah kamek tok sik la seberapa, nak kata kacak ya sik la juak, kaya sik la juak, cukup2 makan jak family mek. tp paduhal, ktk sikla seperti yg kamek sangka selamak tok. ktk lah org yg menceriakan hari kamek, setiap kali mek nangga muka kitak, kamek rasa happy gilak-gilak. perasaan ya nang susah mok dijelaskan pake kata-kata, ktk mesti rasa ktk mpun rasa ya.

and ktk tauk gik sik, tiap-tiap ari kamek merindui kitak, rindu kmk diibaratkan titisan-titisan air hujan yang jatuh. walaupun jatuh ke laut, titisan hujan ya kekal di dalam laut tanpa kering kontang. betapa sakitnya jiwa kamek merindui ktk koh. kamek harap, dengan luahan rasa hati kamek tok, hati kitak terbukak nak nerimak kamek. sesungguhnya kamek nang benar2 rasa kamek cinta ngan kitak.

-kamek-

BLUEK!!!!!~~~~~

pa jark larh ktk ya~!

(true story: something like this was collaboratively written together in the class to kill the boredom)

transliterasi, bahagian dua

2009-11-07T23:23:00.001+08:00

honeymoon in the blue skies;

no one’s gonna bother us;

honeymoon above the rainbows;

just the two of us;

savouring every drop of love;

an incomparable shade of white;

as pure as the morning dew.

mail-in rebates

2009-11-05T22:50:00.001+08:00

sometimes late at night;
I just wonder, alone in my room;
What the word 'friend' really means.

--
Regards,

Nurharith Afnizan Zainorin

Transliterasi

2009-11-04T00:06:00.001+08:00

I’m sorry for making you cry;

and letting you go to someone’s arm;

but, never fake your destiny;

i’m sure, it’s the best for you.

please don’t remember me;

as i’m not meant for you.

The Irony of Liking Your Own Facebook Post

2009-11-02T23:17:00.001+08:00

For me, the perfect date would play like this;

You and me, sitting together or separately;

Just staring at the distance, sometimes steals a peek at each other;

only to find our eyes meet.

Panduan Malam

2009-10-24T23:33:00.001+08:00

Tolonglah, jangan berikan ku,

Isyarat yang bercampur baur,

Kerna ku tak mengerti,

Sinar matamu itu.

Hancurkan Hati

2009-10-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

at some point of your life

you found out that

life is just a big

W.T.F.

Berkongsi Naungan

2009-10-22T20:55:00.001+08:00

Inikah cinta, inikah cinta, inikah cinta,

inikah cinta yang kurasa?

inginku ketahui sekarang juga.

ingkinku ketahui sekarang juga.

The Economics of Life

2009-10-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

I read on my friend’s status once;

everything in life must have a return of investment (ROI);

(the ratio of anything gained on an investment relative to anything invested)

in other words, i would like to rephrase it

everything in life must have a ROI >=1

or a cost-benefit ratio < 1

Perasaan Dulu Dulu

2009-10-20T22:50:00.001+08:00

Bila aku sayang kamu dulu,

Tiada apa yang aku takkan buat.

Overheard from the latest Califronication (S03E04):

Do you love me?

-always, and that’s the problem

Spinning (PR)

2009-10-19T23:01:00.001+08:00

Some moments/matter do change your perspective on people/world/things.

Sometimes for good, sometimes for worse.

Unfortunately, the worse part is easier to be recognized.

Most of the time, ignoring a problem will make it go away on its own.

I guess, I’m going to do just the thing?

Whatevs.

Untuk Segalanya

2009-10-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

Katakan, kau kan kekal bersama,

Kau sungguh mempersona,

Selamanya, untuk segalanya.

Tinggi Lagi Sayang Sama Kamu

2009-10-13T22:18:00.001+08:00

Minggu ini dalam hidup afnizan

Jatuh cinta dengan lagu ini.

The Daily Tweet

2009-09-13T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

19:53 haish, how could you turn a corporate account into your personal one? =,= #

23:27 watching football while IMing and tweeting and FBing #

00:44 the gunners let me down #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-12T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

02:00 maybe going to buy wireless router..gmmm #

02:04 alamakkk #

02:19 i fear for my balls #

19:20 wow, another narcissist #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-11T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

06:46 new ipods? boring. #

00:22 listening to jeff buckley's lover you should've come over #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-10T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

10:10 argh blom iron baju #

19:20 bodoh betul lelaki ini RT Cow head demo: Malay NGO to defend Section 23 'jihad' bit.ly/2Xv5Fl #

23:51 you know what's annoying? reading malaysian forums, that's what. #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

14:57 sakit perut T.T #

23:51 cute cute cute cute.... ahhhh #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-08T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

21:17 who would've thought 128kbps mp3 is enough for casual listening? #

23:45 im considering to purge my #fb friend list #

23:47 wtf are those links u posted here argh no quality at all #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-07T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

12:55 watching the lonely island #

13:22 wondering if jizz in my pants or dick in a box is funnier #

16:14 wow that was a lot of crap u spewed, can you say timeline spamming? #

21:53 the young madonna was hot #

23:06 wow murah nya ps3 kat lelong ~tempted~ #

23:20 ah fuck i just joined the stalker check fad #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-06T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

10:47 oh sudah 2 minggu puasa #

11:18 im guessing facebook is testing new features now #

12:07 ok, apparently facebook auto-refreshes itself #

14:20 blackberry curve on celcom prepaid, am strongly considering it #

19:11 wow how do u manage to spew so much crap in so little time #

23:05 kickapoo joy juice and choc sundae are not a good match for your fasting gut #

23:15 FAG ALERT #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-05T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

05:04 is.gd/2QDiX foobar hotness #

21:59 those wanting foobar2k shell integration for win7, here goes is.gd/2SvyD #

22:42 i hate (most) tech@gadget blogs. only apple is king, and resistive touchscreen = FAIL. wtf. #

22:42 by that i mean they worship whatever crap apple gives to the market, and hates anything with resistive touchscreen #

22:43 i mean, if it is usable, it is usable, right? #

23:29 fag alert #

23:43 a lot of chlorophyll in my poop, nice~~~ #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-04T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

22:40 youtube: your personal fun place, on the web #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

23:30 damn district 9 was cool #

23:37 seriously i dont know what are we doin #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-02T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

07:47 facebook is fun, you got to see who's with who, who's fighting with their loved ones, TMI people, TMI. #

16:50 Sending this using sms #

23:25 i find songs easily online rather than on limewire etc #

23:33 damn, i miss my student life #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-09-01T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

18:25 RT @myPopINNegaraku mashup! The best national anthem video evaarrrrrr! bit.ly/F3l1B #

23:14 lumines-ing #

23:37 preparing google calendar for offline access #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-31T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

10:46 wargh lusak sekolah #

10:51 new kicks today, anyone? #

12:55 douchebags.. they all look the same #

21:50 new kicks #

23:14 just finished configuring peggle.. apaprently requires admin account to play... haishh #

23:30 is.gd/2HIMh all glass hotness! #

00:36 considering wayfarer-like glasses, semua pengaruh haeqal la ini (sadly, ur not on twitter br o) #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-30T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

01:23 adding media to wmp12 lib is very confusing, you add a new one, the old one gone w/o any warning #

01:26 damn, was on battery the whole time, with the screen fully lit #

02:02 i should find something like a dock for my phone #

02:05 im sensing malique's cerita kedai kopi is directed to someone... #

02:11 i wish @opera link would sync my history, wand passwords huhu #

02:18 is.gd/2EhIV omg cant wait for this! #

02:30 wow another one we'll see how this goes #

04:54 puasa made me realize that the correct way to ingest water is by taking it bit by bit #

05:19 attack of the gaster juice #

05:56 dah azan subuh, brla rasa nak minum air #

05:57 daymn...loving the "drag to top" to maximize on win7 #

06:14 thank god, gastric attack finished #

12:34 to go out , or not to go out, haish #

22:21 ergh again people, TMI #

22:29 ok, so maxis has the iphone, celcom has the htc android line, im guessing digi will bring in the pre? #

22:58 since im kinda working now, should i pay my own fitrah now? #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-29T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

10:34 loves WMP12 on seven but cant get it to add my music library #

15:35 water...water.. #

15:46 sungkei out today #

00:20 wow the internet is really bad these days #

00:29 sengal gile ah tenet #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-28T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

16:56 twitpic.com/ffh7e - success! haga #

17:04 upgraded to a new pc since the last 3 years #

20:30 thank god mixero syncs custom filters.. huhu #

21:07 nokia n900: do want #

22:23 isnt it ironic i had more time to spend at nicham's convo rather than mine? #

23:24 betul kata apek ya, rasa nak ku buang jak mouse ya #

23:39 dah nampak dah next hense t aku.. #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-27T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

11:44 win7, anyone? #

23:22 day 2: cat has been sleeping all day again #

23:24 you know, i hate suggestion on facebook #

23:31 my cat just got up and sit on top of me #

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Hari Lima Puasa

2009-08-26T22:49:00.001+08:00

Kita nyanyi jap. Classic rock, never gets old.

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.
If the mountains should crumble to the sea, there would still be you and me.

Kind woman, I give you my all, Kind woman, nothing more.

Little drops of rain whisper of the pain, tears of loves lost in the days gone by.
But my love is strong, with you there is no wrong,
together we shall go until we die. My, my, my.
Inspiration's what you are to me, inspiration, look... see.

And so today, my world it smiles, your hand in mine, we walk the miles,
Thanks to you it will be done, for you to me are the only one.
Happiness, no more be sad, happiness....I'm glad.
If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.
If the mountains should crumble to the sea, there would still be you and me.

The Daily Tweet

2009-08-26T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

08:47 pay day motherfuckers! ha! #

19:35 burp #

21:22 nafsu kata YA perut kata jangan #

21:37 truth be told, i wasnt that elated during graduation, only mellowed #

22:16 ok, there's still room for this jagung susu in my stamak #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

08:34 TMI people, TMI #

11:33 malas banget ari ni #

15:49 bosan nya x keja #

16:28 now it is sunny in the morning and rainin in the afternoon #

18:16 sahur mcd anyone? #

18:26 why wont fb say sth like this: x is in a complicated relationship. haha #

21:15 watching tunak parodies #

21:22 minum kopi sbb rasa ngantok, now i'm afraid i cant sleep tonight #

22:18 wow, facebook really brings out the narcissist in you #

22:20 oh, so mixero uses most cpu when im opening the left and right panel... hmm #

23:14 seems like TPB is down for the moment? #

23:33 my cat has been sleeping all day #

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Everything I Need To Know About The Pop Culture I Learnt From My Students

2009-08-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

So I just formally ended my formal education for the last five years, in other words I’ve graduated. Finished my tertiary education. Holder of a Honourary Degree, an unregistered graduate engineer who currently finds solace in teaching teenagers the wonders of life while being criticized from the back in the face. Call me whatever you want, I frankly don’t give a rat’s ass. Just have the dignity to say it properly behind my back without me noticing, or sound it to me directly in my face. With that I formally announce that I did not fire the first shot, so don’t complain to me if forgiveness is far from my mind.

Ok, done with the mindless yet related rambling. As I finished my tertiary education, of course I’ve accumulated some wonderful and not-so-wonderful memories. But here I’m trying to speak out on the wonderful memories only, the ones I remembered dearly, and will try real hard to hold on to my dear heart.

So during our second semester of foundation year, we moved to a new house, with new housemates whom I barely knew back then. I still remember, the floor was still full of cement dust, and we were slightly proud that we were the earliest people to move in the new apartments. And some time after that, I felt the ground shook due to tremors, caused by earthquake I think. There I was thinking it is the “former occupant” of the building who is terrorizing me. Sorry for a lack of a better word there.

I still remember one day the water in our house was gone, maybe due to the lack of pressure. Everyone did their best by saving water inside pails, but that wasn’t enough. So me and my room mate looked around for possible water source, and we found one that was plenty, but better still not many people knew about it. It was the gym showers and we brought our bathroom stuff on the legendary motorbike to get our shower done there. Boy that was liberating. And after that, some people found out about the gym shower, but luckily the water was restored by then.

And also not to forget crazy adventures undertook by us. The incident where we was very hungry at night while having no money whatsover sprung into mind. You see, the only cash we had was RM5, on BOTH of us. But we were very hungry and the time was 12 am. You know what happens on midnight. The ATMs don’t work. A painful truth we discovered upon reaching the ATM. Ok so we decided to just use the RM5 to eat, no big deal. So we rode to the nearest mamak stall. Another unexpected shit happened, the tires burst. In front of the mamak stall. Just in time, huh. So we eat there, me paying for the food and my roomate paying for the drink. Yes we shared. Crazy shit huh. How did we got back? We called a friend who had a car to pick us there.

Remember the housemates I barely knew that I told above? Well the bond grew and we went on to be housemates till the end. It was all fun until on person, not from our gang decided to join our house without our knowing. Suffice to say he did not have the chemistry to stay with us. He did not stay for long. And here I knew who would stick out for you no matter what happens. Sappy tales, huh.

All in all, living 5 years in UTP ain’t too bad. If given the chance to live that life again, I’m sure I would have done it the same way. Never mind the cliché. You will never do things the different way given a new chance. There’s a slim chance for us to meet and have fun together again, well I do hope we keep in touch.

~cue Crazy Train by Ozzy Osbourne

The Daily Tweet

2009-08-24T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

12:29 thanks to @mixero, there's less noise on my timeline. i like~ #

18:20 shower dan sungkey weeeee #

22:16 i can has kickapoo? #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-23T01:00:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

05:01 sahurudin #

09:43 happy fasting to all, and to @AhDoLL, jgn curi2 makan@minum@rokok@hentai okeh #

12:35 haus #

14:17 stalking friends on latitude is fun #

20:33 disgusted over smear tactics played by *ahem. you can watch all this crap on the nightly news #

23:01 damn, currently missin the days of malboro reds and sampoerna.. huh #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-22T05:19:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

17:53 stalking @AhDoLL on latitude #

18:00 reading about ecpi water, sounds like wack science so far #

19:06 anyone on latitude? add me up #

20:24 im thinkin of naming my son muhammad ali #

20:48 reading dilbert makes me laugh #

21:14 wow, @loudtweeter is up and running #

21:21 i just realized i nver been to the infamous intersection at bukit bintang #

23:55 aku perasan, aku di sekolah mcm miak juak #

00:13 seeding (menabur benih) #

05:01 sahurudin #

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The Daily Tweet

2009-08-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

09:13 anyone up for district 9? #

10:08 mencari topeng apa hendak dipakai hari ini #

21:06 wow.. my hotmail was registered on 2002, that's 7 years ago. haha #

21:24 dank, how did i go from maemo to kitteh videos? #

22:14 sukses! vlookup mastered! hahaha #

22:57 i wonder why during utp convo that day they played annuar zain's lelaki ini #

23:48 it is time to sleep #

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Terputus Talinya

2009-08-11T23:19:00.001+08:00

Oh yes, I know.

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Distractions

2009-08-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

I was doing the exam questions for my students when I stumbled upon this.

If I set the total marks of the paper to be 30, would that have an impact on the result of a student? How about if I set the total to 40, would that be different?

As you can see in the spreadsheet above, while the numbers for one with 40 as the total are larger obviously, when converted to percentage, the percentage of each grades are roughly the same.

Another stunning discovery is that while you can fail easier, you can succeed easier too. Look at the percentage of A compared with the mid range achievement. That means you can get A easier than you can get B or C! Isn’t it amazing what little works can contribute to your success?

And numbers, they never lie.

Premature?

2009-08-09T09:58:00.001+08:00

Sneak Preview.

Heheheh :P

7 days countdown starts now!

The World, and All its Content.

2009-08-07T11:13:00.001+08:00

Schools are supposedly the place where our kids get their education, right?

But most of the time, they still get the education, but other activities, some not very uplifting when we give it a deep thought, still happens.

Some try to be popular, some try to undermine each other, some just don’t give a crap.

A part of growing up? Or trying to grow up too fast?

As adults, I think it is one of our responsibility to tell the kids the world is a big place.

Never limit their view on the world to the school’s vicinity only.

Once you go out there, there are lot to be achieved. Here in school, there are things that you can still achieve, but not those kinds of things that can be achieved outside of the school.

Let’s leave achieving something outside the school to come naturally, once the time is here, all right?

On a side note, I think puppy love is cute. Haha, maybe it’s because growing up, I didn’t have one of them.

Oh well, the outside world has lots to offer!

Just For Fun

2009-07-21T22:14:00.001+08:00

MUKA KO DIAT

Post Awal Pagi

2009-07-17T06:35:00.001+08:00

Kalau dengar lagu die betul lagi layan

Senja berulang rindu
Dan ku sebut namamu
Dalam suara yang bisu
Engkaukah itu
Dan ku ulang kembali
Sewaktu dalam sunyi
Nyanyian kata hati
Rindukah itu
Biarkan kemesraan berlalub
ersama kesunyian yang padu
Akan ku sebut namamu selalu
Namun ada rindu yang lebih dari itu
Kasih di mana janji
Dan kau teruskah lari
Dari ku yang menanti
Engkau kah itu

Kehidupan Seorang Guru yang Agak Tertekan

2009-07-17T00:18:00.001+08:00

Sebab kerja? I don’t think so.

Mungkin sebab lately banyak personal problems I guess.

Whateverla, asal aku hidup, x nyusahkan org laen. Alhamdulillah-la.

Rasa mok gi holiday, tp holiday kt sine? ada ka duit ko? sapa juak dengan ko pegi?

Tamat sudah hari ini, sekian terima kasih.

(see in this picture, I’m like the girl who sits on the chair)

Lately pun kuat ngereco, talk in mumbling gibberish for those who are weak in their French.

Accusations

2009-07-15T08:53:00.001+08:00

To whom it may concern.

I think it is unfair for you to throw these kind of accusation to me while you gave me NO chance at all to explain myself.

I was not in front of my PC, therefore I was unable to respond to you.

As I was getting home from teaching a night class last night, it fumes me to see you throw this kind of accusation, accusing me of jealous/condemning you etc. You know what you had accused me.

For that accusation, I had no intention at all as what you had accused me. I was merely informing you of what is going on. And for making these accusation, I forgive you for making it, because text on the Internet does not necessarily convey the same meaning as in spoken words. Maybe you misinterpreted it. I never intended to wish you any unwell, condemning you in what so ever way or jealous of you in any kind of way.

With this apology, I demand that you take down the post you made and offer me an official apology. You have until 8 tonight.

Walking and Continues Walking

2009-07-13T23:25:00.001+08:00

One fine day…

Is this your friend?

Emm, yes.

Special kinda friend?

Emmm, no?

Is he Chinese?

…

Just a day in my live people, I grew over it pretty fast.

This Post Was Posted Wirelessly

2009-07-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

As far as remembrance go, this would not be as close to one. What do people call it anyway? Classifications mean nothing, as long as the message goes through, right?

I always wait for the right time, the right place, the right moment to say what it is that I always want to say. Consequences, yes I always give it the highest weight in any of my decision making process. Perhaps, it is now the right time to quote my favourite TV show, Californication; there is no right or wrong, just the consequences of your action.

For what it's worth, I must agree with the saying. Good or bad is just a way to put the whole weight of the action, like a punishment of some sorts. Alas, it's what people commonly do nowadays. By doing that, people tend to forget the main thing to do: handling the fallout caused by an action. Who's to say a thing might be bad for you? After all, another man's poison may be another man's meat.

I was trying to Google “another man's poison may be another man's meat”, but look what came up?

Footnote: This was an inane rambling once upon a time ago, while the eyes refuse to shut. I promise I’ll say something about job someday. Meanwhile, enjoy.

The Daily Tweet

2009-06-30T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

18:13 the cars of my neighbor was robbed last night, #

19:21 is enjoying poetry on youtube #

21:07 paddy -> grasshopper -> frog -> snake -> eagle -> lord. adeh, ooo sayang eh #

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Art School, Kuching

2009-06-29T20:39:00.001+08:00

Scouring around YouTube, I found myself liking this form of art; spoken words. These performers, they recite a poem in such a way that it is really moving. Truth be told, it evoked the memories of being a performer like that once upon a time ago. And here are some of the performances that I really had enjoyed watching so far. The poems are so wonderful, and the recital is excellently done.

First up is She'd Prefer a Broken Neck to Another Broken Heart by Amir Sulaiman.

In this poem, Amir speaks to a lady about love. The lady is looking for real men, but all the realest men were dead or incarcerated. Then the lady asks the poem how he survived living in the hood. He answered, it was her mother who kept him survive. Even though they are poor, his mother tried very hard to provide to them. Full text of poem below:

She said that she would prefer a broken neck to another broken heart.
I said "Remember, even the beauty of birth leaves its own scars
And know that you will find your home right where you are."

She said, "I know it sounds cliche, but I really am just waiting to exhale."
She's not looking for a perfect man, she ain't holding out for Denzel
She's just looking for a real man,
But she said "Most of the realest were in graves or in jail"
Just an upright brother, but she's left with low down brothers, homo thugs, and downlow brothers.

And it took her some time with herself to discover
That having love is even more important than having a lover
But what am I supposed to tell her?
That it's going to be okay? But it may not be.
It may be hard and ugly,
Difficult, complicated, rough and bloody
And I said, "So many women are struggling"

She said, "Yeah, I'd like a man to kiss me, I'd like a man to hug me
But he's gotta truly love love before he can truly love me"
I said, "I feel you." She said, "No, you're not feeling me.
We are women bringing up seeds,
Our own sons grow up thinking love is a disease
Ducking and dodging real relationships, and just gonna take what they please
And they treat pregnancy like it's an STD
If the test comes back positive, it's a negative
And they are ghost in the streets,
Drunk in the wind, only a moment is spent and those moments are brief
Our sons' role models are rolling stones unknown or deceased
They figure we can't teach them manhood, so they'll get grown in the streets
So in the cold world they find warmth with the men holding the heat."

I said "There's gotta be a change."
She said, "Yeah, it's gotta be more than poems on TV"
I said, "I feel you." She asked me how I survive.
I said, "By Allah, it was my mother otherwise
I would have been dead, crazy, institutionalized."

"She kept us in the good neighborhoods, even though she couldn't keep on the lights
So we could go to the best schools learning to read and to write.
Sometimes we'd be so broke, in the store, she'd have to pick between the beans and the rice.
Sometimes she'd put ketchup on a navy bean so it wouldn't seem like we're eating the same thing every night.
Two jobs during the day, and one at night.
And the stuff I saw her endure, I never wanna see my wife [endure]
So I know being a man is more than being male, and I'm focused on doing it right."

"But when I think about my childhood, I don't think about poverty
I remember how she hugged me, kissed me, taught me, loved me.
And I know you prefer a broken neck to another broken heart
Broken parts that litter the night sky like stars.
But remember, even the beauty of birth leaves its own scars
And know that you will find your home, right where you are
We will find our homes right where we are."

-Amir Sulaiman

Next up is P.O.W by Alicia Keys.

In this poem, Alicia tells us about how she is a prisoner of her own words. She has lots to say but unfortunately, all the words just remains in her head. Full text is below:

I'm a prisoner

Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
I trap myself further
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

I am a P.O.W.
Not a prisoner of war
A prisoner of words
Like a soldier
I'm a fighter
Yet only a puppet
Mostly I only say
What you wanna hear
Could you take it if I came clear?
Or would you rather see me
Stoned on a drug of complacency and compromise
M.I.A.
I guess that's what I am
Scraping this cold earth
For a piece of myself
For peace in myself

It'd be easier if you put me in jail
If you locked me away
I'd have someone to blame
But these bars of steel are of my making
They surround my mind
And have me shaking
My hands are cuffed behind my back
I'm a prisoner of the worst kind, in fact
A prisoner of compromise
A prisoner of compassion
A prisoner of kindness
A prisoner of expectation
A prisoner of my youth
Run too fast to be old
I've forgotten what I was told
Ain't I a sight to behold?
A prisoner of age dying to be young
To my head is my hand with a gun
And it's cold and it's hard
Cause there's nowhere to run
When you've caged youself
By holding your tongue

I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
It's like solitary confinement
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

Next up is This Type Love by Shihan

This poem is cute, where the writer explains how he loves his girl in his own way. Just read the poem while listening to him recite it, you’ll get the feeling.

I want a love like
Me thinking of you
Thinking of me thinking of you type love
Or me telling my friends more than I’ve ever admitted to myself
About how I feel about you type love
Or hating how jealous you are
But loving how much you want me all to yourself type love
Or see how your first name just sound so good next to my last name
And shit I wanted to see how far I could get without calling you
And I barely made it out of my garage

See, I want a love that makes me wait until she falls asleep
And wonder if she’s dreaming about us being in love type love
Or who loves the other more
Or what she’s doing this exact moment
Or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the music of our hearts
Closing my eyes and imagining how a love so good
Could hurt so much when she’s not there
And shit I love not knowing where this love is headed type love
And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
All around the how she she never forgets how much I love her type love
And not have enough ink in my pen to write all there is to love about her type love
And hope I make her feel as good as she makes me feel

And I want to deal with my friends making fun of me
The way I made fun of them when they went through the same kind of love type love
Only difference is, this is one of those real love type loves
And just like in high school
I want to spend hours on the phone not saying shit
And then fall asleep and then wake up with her right next to me
And smell her all up in my covers type love
I want to try counting the ways I love her
And lose count in the middle just so I have to start all over again
And I want to celebrate one of those one month anniversaries
Even though they ain’t really anniversaries
But doing it just ‘cause it make her happy type love
And, check this, I want to fall in love with the melody the phone plays
When none of us dialed into it type love
And talk to you until I lose my breathe
She leaves me breathless
But with the expanding of my lungs I inhale all of her back into me

I want a love that makes me need to change my cell phone calling plan
To something allows me to talk to her longer
‘cause in all honesty, I want to avoid one of them high cell phone bill type loves
And I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are
I mean the lines on my palms don’t give me enough time
To love you as long as I’d like to type love
And I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter
Just thinking about how strong this love is type love
And I want a love that makes me want to cut off all my hair
Well, maybe not all of the hair
Maybe like I cut the split ends and trim my moustache
But it would still be a symbol of how strong my love for her

And check this, I kind of feel comfortable now
So I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light
Just dying to get hit by a car
Just so I could lose my memory
Get transported to some third world country just to get treated
Then somehow meet up again with you so I can fall in love with you
In a different language and see if it still feels the same type love
I want a love that’s as unexplainable as she is
But I’m married, so she’s gonna be the one I share this love with

Watching these video had made me consider going back into poem recitals.

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2009-06-29T01:03:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

08:13 damn, totally didnt sent a text msg last nite. thank god for drafts ey #

08:48 who the fuck started prank calling on radio station in malaysia? now everyone's doing it, shit #

08:49 .. and to top it off, its not even funny at all! #

20:52 ah nak atur duty roster pun susah! #

23:32 AAAA ulasan lupa buat!!! #

00:03 suddenly felt dead inside #

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Actually….

2009-06-28T14:53:00.001+08:00

Saya tahu saya lambat, tapi ingin juga post. Yuna’s Dan Sebenarnya. Enjoy.

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh

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2009-06-28T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

08:18 a cup of coffee in the morning is liberating.. goin to the school now #

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The King of Pop is Dead

2009-06-26T09:51:00.001+08:00

I woke up today, turned on my computer, and went on Facebook. I was utterly shocked when I say my friend’s status update: apparently Michael Jackson is dead. So I went googling around, Google News mainly and shocked to see that he IS dead, from cardiac arrest. I’m a fan of his music, and right now is still shocked to hear the news. Billie Jean will always be my favourite song.

1958-2009, Rest In Peace Wacko Jacko.

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2009-06-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

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19:45 kt tempat org2 tua lepak #

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2009-06-18T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

18:56 OH: *this is not from utusan malaysia or berita harian..so it's a fact." #

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2009-06-17T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

23:22 porn spoofs are inherently funny #

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2009-06-16T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

08:31 is.gd/1222z sad news for us graduating engineers #

09:07 e72 vids leaked, cant say im too impressed though #

09:10 but the d-pad is impressing, looks like an optical mouse btw #nokia #

10:04 1st day in school balit #

22:11 sudah pancit #

00:06 A cig would be nice now #

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While My Keyboard Gently Weeps

2009-06-15T23:29:00.001+08:00

Today marks the start of a new semester for school kids. That also means I’m starting my temp job as a untrained temporary teacher.

I understand I was trained as an engineer, and surely I will make engineering my preferred career of choice. It’s just something to do while waiting for my convocation and what not.

And what did I learnt from school today? Kids are wonderful, but in my case, those aren’t kids, they’re basically teenagers. But still, their untainted mind, brings me back to the early days. I’ll admit, I don’t have an untainted mind back then, but these teenagers are simply amazing. Although I wouldn’t take them for granted, since who knows when they think teachers are not to be respected anymore?

I was asking these students about their holidays, and they tell stories about their… erm holidays. What they do, what they encounter. I learnt some new stuff also from them, like this one dish from Sabah, I couldn’t remember the name.

But teaching comes with a lot of works. Teachers nowadays don’t just teach, they mark papers, take attendance, organize events for students etc etc. Well, as they say it’s just another day at work.

So before I leave, enjoy this video.

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2009-06-15T01:03:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

21:36 what to wear to work tomorrow? hmmm #

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2009-06-14T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

11:03 what to do today aiyoh #

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2009-06-12T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

18:41 islamist will destroy malaysia #

00:31 argh, e71 just restarted by itself ! -_- #

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2009-06-11T01:06:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

11:22 facebook limits 60 pics per album. sigh. #

20:28 apparently, we want our kids to be dumber (abolishing ppsmi) #

23:28 getting to write this birthday card #

23:44 there's a great kristen bell movie at hallmark ch #

00:15 why am i doing this? #

00:43 watching stephen colbert trying abseiling reminds me of instep days.. haha #

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2009-06-10T01:07:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

21:38 RT @altimet: #crapsuperpowers the ability to corrupt malaysian politicians. 'My work is done. whoooosh!' #

23:30 koko jelly yeah. koko #

23:58 it's screamyx time! #

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2009-06-09T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

11:42 pg porn is so f'in funny #

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2009-06-08T01:03:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

22:32 it seems like the only people with classy taste in malaysia are the cigarette manufacturers.. their adverts are f'n awesome #

00:28 argh! opera turbo doing its thang. pics look greatly compressed #

00:44 is.gd/RLhS facebook = electronic friendship generator #

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2009-06-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

13:58 i feel like sitting down all day watching the guild on you tube #

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2009-06-06T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

02:20 Hello world! #

10:05 On the bus.. On the way to klia #

13:33 Kat klia neh #

13:58 Sedap gila makan double whopper huuuuh #

15:28 I know it's rude to stare but idk how to start talking! Haha #

17:19 I swear this girl looks like the girl from thw veronicas! #

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16 Hours Till Homebound

2009-06-05T02:30:00.001+08:00

MH2718, 1830 from KLIA.

Ticket to paradise.

Goodbye for good, dear UTP, good riddance.

Yet, the memories remain.

p.s: I hope I see you soon, I need a closure.

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2009-06-05T01:04:00.001+08:00

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11:21 tired tired tired #

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2009-06-04T01:04:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

01:59 oh mai god, is she going to the airport? #

14:48 bila la aku nak stat pack #

21:17 opera 10 beta is superr fassssst #

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2009-06-03T01:06:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

03:03 omfg, xbox360 is going to be my next console whee~~ fb+twitter in the livin room #

06:19 sometimes i wish i could watch you sleep #

23:17 late dinner #

23:58 eating your heart out is always never good #

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2009-06-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

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01:33 it's like, i don't even exist at all. #

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5 Days Till Homebound

2009-06-01T01:15:00.001+08:00

2 days ago…

Finished 5-years of undergraduate studies. Just looking at this picture makes me sad :(

A very bad game of bowling, shit betul.

…namun kami berasa gembira. Thanks random chick for taking this.

And today…

…paham2 sendiri la ye. Hehe

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2009-06-01T01:03:00.001+08:00

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13:26 sedih plak tgk pics after ocm paper :( #

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2009-05-31T01:03:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

19:29 californication season 2 reruns #

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2009-05-30T01:05:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

01:57 truth be told, i miss you :( #

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7 Days Till Homebound

2009-05-29T02:03:00.001+08:00

Song accompanying yours truly during study time this week: On The Radio by Regina Spektor. Enjoy.

This is how it works
It feels a little worse
Than when we drove our hearse
Right through that screaming crowd
While laughing up a storm
Until we were just bone
Until it got so warm
That none of us could sleep
And all the styrofoam
Began to melt away
We tried to find some words
To aid in the decay
But none of them were home
Inside their catacomb
A million ancient bees
Began to sting our knees
While we were on our knees
Praying that disease
Would leave the ones we love
And never come again

On the radio
We heard November Rain
That solo's really long
But it's a pretty song
We listened to it twice
'Cause the DJ was asleep

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

And on the radio
You hear November Rain
That solo's awful long
But it's a good refrain
You listen to it twice
'Cause the DJ is asleep
On the radio
(oh oh oh)
On the radio
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio - uh oh
On the radio

Originally seen at postsecrets.blogspot.com

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2009-05-29T01:07:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

02:07 i support man utd for champs league final but i feel barca will win #

15:36 45mil for ribery? (via @bbcsports) #

20:38 theme song during study: on the radio by regina spektor #

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2009-05-28T01:12:00.001+08:00

Today's thoughts in < 140 characters:

01:45 finding eclectic art types #

08:05 ketar ketar #

17:35 first ovi store download: star trek ringtone #ovistore #

18:14 yess! linux mint released! #

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Yellow Mellow

2009-05-27T01:41:00.001+08:00

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

Dedication actually, my mind can’t rest too well thinking about Mandarin paper tomorrow.